Lessons learnt this Monday..

1. Daniel does not like peas

2. Hiding peas in banana will not fool my little Einstein

3. If I insist on force-feeding him peas - in the hope he will suddenly change his mind and love them - then I must deal with the consequences of projectile green pea vomit all over my new wool jersey!

Lesson learnt!

There are still good people in the world..

This is Margaret - Margaret is the person who keeps life at our house running smoothly, she is also one of Daniel's favourite people in the whole world.

Last year, when I went into labour with Daniel at 31 weeks, we hired Margaret to take over some of the heavy work around our house so as to allow me to rest more. Since then she has become so much more to our family, but especially to Daniel. Daniel absolutely adores her. When she comes in in the mornings he gives her the biggest smile you have ever seen and he loves spending time with her during the day.

Even though she was originally hired just to help with our home, she is now so important to Daniel that I don't think we could ask her to leave even if I wanted to - which I obviously don't. She loves playing with him and whenever he is grumpy and nothing (I do) is working, Margaret puts him on her back like you see in the picture, and he calms right down and will happily "chat" with her while she goes about her day. The way she is carrying him here is the traditional Afrcan way to carry a baby and it is so soothing to Daniel that he completely forgets his grumpiness.

I am a firm believe that you can tell a lot about a person by the way babies react to them - same as how animals react to people tells you a lot about their character.. based on this, I know Margaret is one of the good people of the world.. Daniel loves her, and we are so lucky to have her.

Thank you Margaret.. from Adam and myself, but most especially from Daniel...

Rambling thoughts...

So here I sit at my machine.. wondering if I am even going to post this or just keep it to myself. I guess if you are reading this now, then it means I decided to share it with the world..

As you all know, I have been really emotional about Kayleigh for the past month or so.. especially with her passing... Today I have felt really down - I think the fact that Daniel is ill and we are not getting much sleep definitely has something to do with it..Anyway, Adam told me a story at dinner tonight that has reduced me to tears. I know some of you must be wondering what on earth is going on with me..and the truth is.. I don't know!

The story that Adam told me at dinner concerns child abuse and for some reason it has affected me so badly that I am an emotional wreck at the moment.. let me back-track.

Today I have been trying to find a story (or piece of news or politics) for me to blog about. I have been looking for a topic that means something to me..I have searched in our local newspaper as well as our national newspapers, trying to find something to inspire a post that does not focus on my chilren.

Okay okay, I know this post is rambling a bit.. and a bit without flow, but stay with me..please..

So tonight Adam tells me this story and I just fall apart - yes, I managed to hold it together until Caleb was in bed. The thing is this..

I won't go into detail with this story that Adam told me, but the abuse was horfic, and I keep thinking about this poor child and what he has suffered at the hands of his drugged up father and the agony this child must have suffered, and I think about how absolutely wrong the world is to allow this small child to suffer so much, and yet people like Aimee and Adam (Kayleigh's parents) who have lost their little girl would give anything to have her with them.

How does the world (read fate.. or God) allow Kayleigh to die and yet leaves this poor sweet child in the care of a drug addict who inflicted such horrific abuse on his own child??? How can that be right?

Don't tell me about His greater plan.. or that it all has a reason.. what plan or reason can there be for leaving a child with such a monster and yet take Kayleigh away from such loving parents..

I wanted to write so much more about this topic.. but I feel physically exhausted and emotionaly drained.. so I am going to stop typing now.. and try to forget..I am not going to even spell check.. I know there are errors.. but I just don't have the energy to change them..

Let me forget..